for ambitious_woman The Bastille

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Relaxed.

Relaxed was something Jack Harkness rarely felt. In fact the concept of relaxation seemed an alien one to him. But yet here he was, that was how he felt. The muscles in his body were looser than they'd felt in far too long, and pains that had held there through stress and worry had, at least for now, melted away to nothingness.

It was morning, and he opened his eyes to a world he'd come to find he liked. A place that while it was nowhere that he belonged, he'd been surprised to discover that there was a space for him. A welcoming space with a welcoming face. He wasn't sure if it was something he deserved but for once, for a time, he wasn't going to worry about that.

When he woke, beside him he saw Reinette sound asleep. It made him smile and he pressed a delicate and small kiss to the skin at her shoulder. He stayed there a moment, just smiling and watching, and he whispered to her, "I'll be right back."

And so he rose from the bed. His intent was to find food. He'd take a morning walk, just a short one in the pleasant summer morning that he could see filtering through beyond the window, and then he'd venture to the kitchens and procure themselves something.

His clothes were near, and he dressed in them, item by item and then his coat (as if he'd go anywhere without it), and out into the corridors and halls of Versailles he went.

He wasn't on his guard, of course, why should he be? Short of clockwork what need he worry about right now? And really, should he encounter clockwork, he'd merely turn it off. No, here he felt happy, he felt safe, and so that guard he had learnt to keep up, was down.

And so it was his downfall.

He found his way to the rear gardens, nodding politely to footmen on his way (people that usually he made no effort to even acknowledge). But they had noticed him. In fact they had noticed him long before he noticed them. They had been noticing him for quite some time. They had noticed him in gardens and they had noticed him behind closed doors. And Jack had no idea.

And he wasn't prepared.

Entirely unprepared for the troupe of guards that met him in the gardens. It was as though they had been waiting, as though they had sought him out (and they had, of course). And as strong as Jack could be, he was not prepared, and so he could do nothing when he was met with a blow to the head, and another blow that knocked him to the ground. Another and another until he felt metal shackles on his wrists held behind his back and a tear of fabric between his lips to quiet his shouts.

And he was taken away.

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It occurred to Reinette then, they were asking a great deal of one another without ever once asking actual questions. They were instead statements, only just managed as said with the trusting expectation that the other would be able to understand it.

It worked, between them. Though Reinette would be hard pressed to say precisely how.

There was a small, precisely managed moment of quiet. Some might think it would be more flattering if one rushed head long into his offer, seeing no other way but that. But Reinette knew Jack would understand. That she was carefully considering everything, just what it could mean.

Yet she still chose him.

"Yes," she answered, the tension in her hands abating slightly.

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Though it seemed almost like it would have been impossible, and though it was just as much a surprise to himself, Jack found himself smiling. It was only small, only gentle, but it was a smile nonetheless.

"Thank you," he said with a nod.

He'd come a long way now from the man terrified to even touch her timeline. But then the last year had taken its toll on him. In his mind he assured himself he'd bring her back. He'd have her back and nobody would ever be any the wiser, no matter how long she was gone.

His head turned back again. He looked to the window and it seemed impossibly far away. He still felt tired, still ached, and the bed was what he needed, he knew that. And so he let himself shift back, pulling his legs back up, and moving in the bed to lie back again, the sheet resting gently over him.

His eyes flicked towards her.

"How do I look?" he asked.

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At the sight of Jack's smile, Reinette felt one of her own settle across her features. It was small, and caused part of her to ache. It occurred to her how little she had smiled over the last year. Some of that -- most of it -- could be attributed to the exhausting pace she had chosen to attack life. But some of it sure was Jack's absence.

She wondered what he would think, if she told him that.

"You really must cease with those words, Jack," she said then, referring to his thanks. "I am not going to acknowledge them."

Part of Reinette expected Jack to catch them up then and leave, just as he said. She fully understood if he never wished to spend another minute in France. But instead he made a fine attempt of taking over her bed in the old, familiar way. She shifted to allow him to.

"Like yourself," Reinette answered, her fingers moving to push back a few strays hair that spangled on his forehead. "Like Jack."

Only, not quite.

"Except..."

Reinette carefully untangled herself from the bed, moving to a chair that sat on the far side of her room. She shifted a large bungle of grey fabric aside to find something smaller and just as familiar. Returned to the bed Reinette came to stand against the bed, near Jack.

She lifted his arm, placing a careful, quiet kiss to the top of his wrist before returning his wrist strap where it belonged.

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Inside, Jack's heart beat a little bit faster. He was tired and his question, as casually as it had been posed, was an important one. He knew of course, logically, that he would look exactly as he always did. But that didn't quite sit with him, not after the year he'd had.

His eyes flicked up to Reinette's fingers as she brushed his hair back. He was incredibly aware of it, and more so than usual, but he made no effort to stop her or to draw back.

"Like Jack," he repeated on a long breath out, settling his head again against the pillow.

He soon looked up again though, watched with a furrowed brow as she moved away and back again. Watched and the realisation dawned on him. He let her take his hand, let her buckle the strap. Like every other touch, he was so much more aware of it. But this was good. He felt less naked, less withdrawn. A little more protected.

He glanced sideways towards her and nodded. He wouldn't say thanks again.

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Reinette watched Jack settled into more of himself, the effect soft and subtle. She was glad he abandoned the need to thank her. She had already sorted out it was indeed Jack that made a scene in the palace halls that day. She should not have been so quick to explain the event away. To accept that Jack you leave so suddenly.

He had no reason to thank her.

"And there is a bit of grey fabric to compliment it as well," she finally spoke, filling the silence. "When you are ready."

She realized then her hand still held Jack's, and Reinette's fingers laced with his own for a brief moment before guiding it back down to the bed. She placed it carefully there.

"You should rest now."

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His eyes blinked slowly, once then twice, and then glanced towards her. His coat. But no, he wasn't ready for that. Wasn't ready for the marker that it made him. The hero costume he decorated himself in. He felt a long way off that yet.

"Not yet," he said quietly, and thought maybe she understood that. Her of fans and layers and masks. She knew.

His eyes flicked again, and this time down to her hand. He watched and breathed a deep and heavy breath. Measured to keep an element of control.

"I'm fine," he said, "I don't need it," some sort of weak protestation. And it was good in a way that he could protest at all. It meant he wasn't quite ready to give up.

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When one favored masks, they could be especially difficult to discuss. All the more so when one was forced to interact without them. Reinette understood, all too well. Not only to feel week and betrayed by one's own body, but to also be exposed as well.

And so she purposefully misunderstood Jack's words, reaching for the gentle teasing they once favored.

"Not yet." The actress case just a hint of a confused light in her eyes as she echoed Jack's words. But only just. It would be inconsiderate to wear too many masks when Jack was left with none. The only thing she hid was the depth of her concern.

"What would you do with yourself instead?"

One finger traced along the muscles in his forearm with a gentle pressure.

It was nothing but words. If he followed her unmasked gaze closely enough Jack would see that immediately.

Reinette leaned in to press a kiss to Jack's forehead.

"Rest, Jack."

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It wasn't so much that Jack bristled, but that he was unprepared. Without his walls and his games he had no way of knowing if he could respond. Some inbuilt self depreciation, not even half as confident in himself as he'd ever make out that he was.

His eyes ducked a moment, half lidded, and then back to her. If she might notice it, she might detect the minute shifting of the muscles in his arm, tense and the forcing himself to relax.

He looked to her again and nodded, just slightly.

"Yeah," he said, and he even tried to smile.

He continued to look at her though, not closing his eyes or turning away. "Where should you be?" he asked. Because he knew, a woman such as her had a calendar that was rich and full, and there was little time for being secreted away with him.

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Reinette was aware. There were hardly moments when she was not aware. Communication came far too naturally between them, even now, for it to be otherwise. The few times they had genuinely misunderstood one another comprised a handful at best.

But she did not speak on it.

Instead choosing to meet his smile with a soft one of her own.

"I could be a great many places, I suppose. The list is both varied and dull. Where should I be?"

There was only one answer, and she reached for it between them.

"Here."

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As Jack looked at her, the corner of his mouth twisted into a slight smile. "I should know better than to argue with that, shouldn't I?" he said. And that was to say that while he might not argue, she should know the intent is there.

He looked up at the ceiling again, glancing to the cornices and to the walls and the intricacy of the patterns upon it. He noticed them more now.

And then, from nowhere, a realisation and a statement.

"You know what?" he said. "I'm starving."

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A task to do.

Her smile grew notably as she considered. Something less to do with Jack, yet entirely to do with him all the same. One less designed so that he might see it and be assured, but because something in his behavior assured her.

Here was something she could do. Something Reinette could manage, and accomplish.

She moved to sit just on the edge of the bed, adjacent to Jack. It was odd, considering she would soon be in movement again. Taking action. But she was weary of looking down at him. And Reinette knew the comfort in being on the same level as another, especially considering the competitive edge they both honed. It might not be at the forefront with Jack then, but she was certain it never left him.

"What would you like?"

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Jack watched her move. No movement himself, just eyes that carefully examined the way she moved, and perhaps tried to predict what she might do next.

"Chocolate Eclairs," he said, somewhat defiantly. "Lots of cream, with the chocolate just dripping off the edge."

He let out a small laugh, but it pulled inside, a little uncomfortable, and it faded away to silence.

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Jack, Reinette thought then, was still not entirely at ease in his own skin. Though it was difficult to think how he could be. It had been some time since he had truly been in it.

Though she logically understood, it made it no less difficult to witness. Why her own view of him was so firm, Reinette was not certain. By the strictest measure their acquaintance was still brief.

She remained perched on the narrow strip of bed adjacent to Jack. There was a fine demonstration of not noticing the way his laugh faded into nothingness, and a hand continued to rest just near his own. Carefully planned but casually done, fingers just touched.

"Pastry it shall be then."

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It felt to Jack that he was simply weighed down. He felt heavy, and he supposed in many ways he was; his body now the mass that was likely triple that it had been the day before. Even with death, the change took some getting used to.

Usually, perhaps, he'd have some sort of awareness. The way she moved could be so like him. There was a comparison they could draw that they both knew was there. But yet perhaps it was his tiredness, or still cloudy mind, but he couldn't note it now.

And so maybe because he couldn't note it (or maybe his action would have been the same either way), his hand shifted to hold Reinette's close to his. The hand that just touching gently was enough to coax him a little more.

And he smiled.

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They sat in companionable silence for several moments. Though Reinette had been well served by words and speeches in the past, for now she was content to abandon them.

In the space of a breath she shifted. It was hardly much. The turn of a wrist. The gentle rearranging of what was already there. Very little changed, other than Reinette quietly and purposefully placed her hand below Jack's. Even though they still touched, Jack's own hand had renewed access to air. His kin might breathe.

"I really should see about your food."

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With just the gentle curl, Jack's fingers closed around the shape of Reinette's hand. Not much, just a little, and perhaps an indication as to how he really felt, and not what he'd outwardly display.

"Yeah," he said, but there was no conviction behind his voice.

He didn't want her to go.

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Reinette smiled deliberately, as if the force of her own might somehow illicit one from Jack. Her thumb traced a single line across his hand where theirs touched.

"Eclairs," she announced. "Breads and crepes and chocolate and creme."

Her tone was warm. It was not truly what Jack needed, she suspected. But it was a start. Reinette stood then, carefully untangling herself and moving towards the door.

"I will return shortly."

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Jack wasn't one that would gladly admit to any sort of weakness or panic, and in truth he wanted Reinette to be able to leave and come back.

But then he wasn't sure how possible that might be.

His heart seemed to speed a little, and all because she'd gone. Because she'd stepped away and it was hardly any distance at all. But then he was worried, and were he honest with himself he'd admit that. What if the kings men came here? What if he got taken back again? 14 months in a room alone was a long time, and the prospect of repeating that, even for a moment, wasn't a welcome one.

And so he found himself talking, perhaps even before thinking.

"Don't go," he said on an urgent breath out.

"Lets go," he added, "Lets go now. From here."

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If Reinette felt any immediate concerns at Jack's sudden change of heart, her expression revealed none of it. That was to be thought on later, and privately. Or in her case intensely and privately, sorting through precisely what it meant.

Again, they spoke in words that were questions but not quite. Which left them answers that were clear but not entirely.

Reinette crossed the space between them in three precise strides, half as many as it took to walk away.

"Of course, Jack," she replied quietly, but leaving no questions at all. "We can go now."

How could he wish to remain here, after everything that happened?

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If Jack hadn't realised it before, the relief he felt at her confirmation was palatable.

Ne nodded, and tried not to notice how weak he might appear for asking the question in the first place.

At that though, he sat up a little more, the sheet over him falling down a little. He nodded to her a second time and took a deep breath.

"Get anything you need," he said, and with slightly fumbling fingers, he opened his wrist strap to program in the location.

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Though they had not exactly inundated their recent time together with conversation, and were generally silent? Now Reinette fell completely so as she considered Jack's instruction.

Anything she might need, he said.

She was a woman accustomed to needed a great many things. Not want. Need. She needed to prove to herself the man from the fireplace was real. She needed to know that she was better than the people of court that would judge her as lacking. And she needed Louis. For a great many reasons. Some complicated, others something more than that.

But it occurred to her then, standing there in nothing but her nightgown that she could think of absolutely nothing in that particular moment that she needed.

Other than to go with him.

Self aware as always, she immediately checked herself. Was she losing herself, somehow. So consumed in his own self and hurts and was disregarding herself? But no, it was what she wanted. And needed.

To go with him.

Still silent Reinette went to gather Jack's coat into her arms, the heaving fabric draping where she held it as she returned to his side.

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As Jack waited for Reinette, he was already preparing himself. It wasn't a conscious thing, but it was as though he knew she'd be back without having to prepare. And then? There she was, and he held his hand out towards here.

"Wouldn't want to forget that," he said, as if he were referring to the coat in her hands, but he wasn't looking at it as he spoke; he was looking at her.

His wrist strap was set then, ready to go back. Back to a little house, a long time from now. Somewhere safe and somewhere his.

With the flap open he gestured towards it. "Want to do the honours?" he asked and pointed towards one of the silver buttons. "That one there."

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Reinette balanced the weight of Jack's coat onto one arm, so that she might take his hand. It still smelled of him, she realized then. However Louis had stored in within that trunk and not allowed the scent to dissipate, but rather kept it close. It was mildly disconcerting, but hardly unmanageable.

She failed to catch his glance as his fingers closed over her own. Instead Reinette's gaze slipped from the coat to his hand. It was not that looking at his skin, clean and healthy and strong caused her to recall what he looked like before. Rather she was captivated by the now, and the in between. What caused it, and the man that managed it. It was not a difficult thing, she suspected. And though they had never discussed it.

At his offer her eyes flickered up to his, warm and the glimmer of pleasure there undisguised. It was brief, but genuine.

"I will not say no."

Unguided, her fingers slipped close to a button that was absolutely not the one Jack indicated. There was the thought of it, that it might lead anywhere. But more than anything it was to tease the man next to her. Out of himself. Away from his thoughts. And thus that much closer.

That was all.

Closer.

With another tilt of her mouth Reinette's fingers did precisely as they were bid and depressed the button as originally instructed.

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For a moment Jack's eyebrows both raised. He didn't stop Reinette but he straightened his back a little and sat a little more attentive.

And for the same moment, there was a smile on Jack's face that was entirely normal.

And then they were gone.

The vortex seemed to tug on him a little more than usual for those few moments that it could be felt, but then it was over as soon as it had begun and then they were there, somewhere and somewhen else.

For Jack the landing was less than graceful. He was where he wanted to be, but the accuracy was only as close as he could manage, and so he found himself falling to the floor, still wrapped in the sheet from the Paris bed. The room was carpeted and relatively warm for a cottage that had been left alone. But it was his, and of a sorts? It was home.

And it was safe.

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It was never something she would grow accustomed to, Reinette thought. The almost violent pull at her core, the sensation of not entirely being held together. Only to have it all stop, just as suddenly as it began.

Of course, what a wonder there was something so beyond herself to not grow accustomed to at all. There were worse things, she knew. She had only recently witnessed one of them.

Jack, somewhat recovered in at least the physical sense, stood taller than Reinette once more. So much that when he fell to the ground, their hands still clasped, there was little she could do but follow. There was the moment where her knees tried to catch them both before yielding.

And then Reinette too was on the floor, Jack's coat landing just at her feet.