It had been months since then. Months since the Valiant and the terrible events that occurred upon it. It had been months of rebuilding a life. Torchwood, his team, his people.
But every night. Every night without fail. He dreamt.
No, not dreams. Dreaming sounded like too nice a word. He had nightmares. Terrible nightmares.
He did his best to ignore them, or at least get used to them, and sometimes he even managed it. He did his best to push aside the memories of that year that never was, and of the pain and terror. To forget the face of the man who caused it all. But it never was that easy.
Some nights would be easier. The nights forcing himself to stay awake or better the nights he spent with Ianto. It stilled his mind and sometimes he could even relax. But they'd still be there, tickling away at the back of his mind, reminding him that they were there. Reminding him of just what happened.
He'd even, on an occasion or two, gone to the point of taking pills to steady his mind. They worked, at least for a while.
But nothing could work for long, and when he slept, he knew to expect it, and to expect he'd wake in a sweat.
And he expected that now. Alone in the Hub at the end of a long day, lying in bed and waiting. He closed his eyes, and he knew they'd come.
But every night. Every night without fail. He dreamt.
No, not dreams. Dreaming sounded like too nice a word. He had nightmares. Terrible nightmares.
He did his best to ignore them, or at least get used to them, and sometimes he even managed it. He did his best to push aside the memories of that year that never was, and of the pain and terror. To forget the face of the man who caused it all. But it never was that easy.
Some nights would be easier. The nights forcing himself to stay awake or better the nights he spent with Ianto. It stilled his mind and sometimes he could even relax. But they'd still be there, tickling away at the back of his mind, reminding him that they were there. Reminding him of just what happened.
He'd even, on an occasion or two, gone to the point of taking pills to steady his mind. They worked, at least for a while.
But nothing could work for long, and when he slept, he knew to expect it, and to expect he'd wake in a sweat.
And he expected that now. Alone in the Hub at the end of a long day, lying in bed and waiting. He closed his eyes, and he knew they'd come.