"At the time... I thought I could save him. That it would be fine. That he'd learn to cope... just like I did." Her voice is a hoarse whisper and she almost almost wishes she could see him now, to read his face. "But he was so bitter and angry after the war -- all that death..."

She's pleading, pleading with him to understand that she'd betrayed everything they'd ever fought against -- but that she'd done it out of love.